Obedience

A goal that I've had this year is to read through the Bible.  I've done it before, once, and I'd like to do it again.  I've tried numerous times since then, but I noticed that I would start at Genesis and get going real good, and then the genealogy would pop up and I'd nod off.   This year I resolved would be different, I would start, and finish.  Even if it took me longer than the year to finish.

So I started--at the end--and have been working my way back to the front since then.  I got halfway through the new testament and realized that if I didn't start reading the old testament too, I would probably not make it through.  And that's where I am right now, up to my eyeballs in Ezekiel.  And I've noticed each minor prophet book thus far cries out to me for obedience.  Oh I'm sure that there are lots of other things that I could be getting, but the Spirit keeps pointing out how much He wants me to obey.  Squirm if you want, I've done my fair share of it, it ain't easy.  It's not my nature.  I'm such a rebel.  Who me?  I need God?  Pssssh, naw, I'm good on my own, got my 'thing' goin on.

But I'm not, and I don't.  I'm nothing without my Maker.  And just when I think that I'm doing ok, and I'm starting to feel kinda holy.  The Spirit keeps pointing out more things that I could work on.  Right now it's the white lies.  Since God has started pointing out the little lies, I'm amazed at how often I do it.  Especially as a parent, I find myself twisting or omitting the truth to my children.  And the crazy thing is, I don't even know why I do it!

Back to Ezekiel.....
God asked him to lay on his side for 390 days to make a visual point to Israel.  And he did it.  God asked Ezekiel to shave off his beard and hair for another point.  And he did it.  There have been so many things that God has asked Ezekiel to do, some of which seem totally crazy to me.  But he did it.  No questions asked.  No whining.  No back talking.  He just obeyed.  And I am in total amazement and awe over Ezekiel's obedience.

I wanna be like that.  I want to do what God asks, without questioning Him over whether He thinks that's a good idea or not.  I want to be the kind of girl who is so trusting of my Savior that I just do.

It's not easy bein me.  I got a lot of me to work on, that's for sure!